August 27, 2011

your voice is in my head! get it out! get it out!!


that’s how i know i can never get rid of you!
you will always be there-
your voice becomes the character in a book i’m reading.
your laugh when the song playing on the radio that reminds me of you.
your husky sorrow when i see the tears on someones face and realize that everyone is human.
everyone makes mistakes.
every day, though i slightly loose what you look like,
how you do certian things,
like walk, 
or sit…
i’ll never be able to get rid of your voice.
it’s what made me know you were still alive
when you were almost dead.
what made me feel like actually getting some sleep
talking til 3 in the morning with you.
what made me realize i really do love you…
that i want to hear your voice when i wake up every morning.
that i want it to be your voice i hear singing to my children,
as you tuck them into bed at night.
your voice
i’ll always have that

you know that song that makes you feel… feel the hot summers under the sun. feel the cold winter that nips. feel the blossom hope of spring. the warmth of fall colors. it makes you feel completely alone, like you’re the only one in the world.. yet it also makes you feel like you are getting the longest, nicest, warmest, hug from that one person who means the world to you- and you to them.

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it’s like a memory you’ve never had before…
dancing on the edge of your mind…
teasing your sanity…
longing for it to unveil…
crying at lost hope…
makes you wonder if you’ve lived your De’j’a vu
hoping that you’ll one day feel the completness of the emptiness…