I slowly trek through the new fallen snow

by the bright beaming light of the moon rise.
Colors that shimmer. There's blue in my eyes
brings all the world to a fresh shinning glow.
Up above I see clean tracks of a doe,
while all I can hear from up in the skies
a flock of birds just saying their goodbyes.
From a head I see the trees down below.
I feel a pull on the strings of my heart
that I have belonged right here forever.
I pull of my scarf, my glove, and my cap.
Exposed to nature I feel I'm a part
of this. Oh how I hope to remember!
I pull out my camera, click, click, SNAP!

I'm not mad at you

no, never mad at you.
you're my hero
you're my smiles,
my "smrts",
my angel.
no, not mad,
lost-
confused-
sad-
hurt-
yes....hurt,
but never ever mad.

i fall asleep

at the silence
and isolation
memories fly by
like vivid dreams
i can't eat
stomach aches
like the first time
i fell for you.
i don't want this again
please: break my heart!

Fire Burning Inside

why haven't you called?
you know I'm hurting
this fire inside won't leave
you're my only hope
lock these feelings inside
put my fire out
just say it to my face
nothing can hurt me now
nothing can hurt me more
than the fire burning inside.....

i don't know what you want from me?

you look at me with
intense sorrow
and i can see in your eyes
the wish you have of me.
but when i ask,
and you act like i'm the last person
in the world you want to tell,
i can't help but feel
that you really do need my love.
but you don't really want
to get hurt again.

the rain streaks my window
maybe it will stop
anyone seeing the tears
i don't want you to
see me this way
but i need you
to comfort me
i need you
to confide in
i need you
to have distract me
i need you
to love,
to love me

the rain keeps falling
matching my mood
tears fall just as fast.
the storm of my life.
i need you
to distract me
i need you
to comfort me.
i need you
to love me.

SNAP!

Above the mountains, a new light breaks through.
SNAP! SNAP! SNAP!
Cotton candy clouds.
The moon with a halo of peace among the stars.
SNAP! SNAP! SNAP!
A glimpse of Heaven.
Children on the playground, running, laughing, screaming.
SNAP! SNAP! SNAP!
Innocence in dreaming.
Smiles on our faces or tears in our eyes.
SNAP! SNAP! SNAP!
Memories of our love.

the end is coming
it's the falling action time
every story has one
but there is a sequal on the way
and i can't stop it from coming.
i want to stay here,
going back over the pages in my story i know,
i don't want another part
because i'm worried you won't be in it.
i don't want to go through another climax
where you leave me again
because i'm worried you won't come back
i don't know what i will do
keep writing my sequal, on brand new pages
no matter what happens
or will i tear them out, and give up on life
and write the end instead of
to be continued.....